Jane Ballot

Being me in the world

Thursday 13th November

Sometimes I feel like a specimen in a lab, or something in an experiment (or maybe just a Drama person on show, but for the wrong reasons…)

It’s not always easy being the patient, the one with the cancer ¬†– ¬† the one whom ¬†everyone around me watches closely to see how I’m doing, what may be affecting me and how I’m coping.

It’s as though I can barely move before someone is asking me if I’m okay.

I know that some of the attention is simply necessary and that some is based on caring. It just feels a bit much sometimes.

In between all of this, I suppose that what I want to feel is normal and, simply, allowed just to be.

 

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